Attacks...

Being on the front lines of spiritual warfare sucks. I've felt that I have been on them a lot lately, because I have been rekindling the romance in my life with Jesus AND I'm going to do the Lord's work in a few weeks, so the enemy really has it out for me and is attacking the most sensitive areas of my life.

Roger Webb, the revivalist/evangelist who came to our church a few weeks ago came back today for the Sunday service. He said when you're in the storm to keep your eyes on the Lord and not the enemy... maybe that's my problem. I'm so busy fighting under God's authority, but I'm not always focused on Him as much as I am the enemy and defeating him. Yes, the enemy is a target and must be defeated, but every knee shall bow and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord! I don't need to fight for Him, the battle's already won. I just need to know my place and keep my eyes fixed on Him... like a child learning how to walk, they keep their eyes on mommy or daddy and make their way straight to them. Sometimes they stumble a little, but they are determined to make it. When Jesus' calmed the storm in Mark 4 He asked the disciples if they had no faith. He didn't understand why they were afraid when God in the flesh was on the boat and just chillin. Nothing is different now. It seems like I've been trying to do to much, change to much and I just need to receive when the Lord wants to give me and just let Him do it already! Who knew it could be so hard to just receive... lol. I don't need to do anything but ask most of the time. If He needs me to do something, He'll tell me.

God been talking to me a lot lately and showing me things. He's been answering my prayers when I intercede for people, especially for my summer project group. It's just been awesome. God is so good and wonderful. There's no way that I'm going to give up and stop persevering. Nehemiah 8:10 says that the joy of the Lord will be our strength. Nehemiah wouldn't have said that if we wouldn't need the joy of the Lord and if we didn't need strength, which means following God isn't easy and through the valleys we need to remember what the Lord has done and take great joy in that. We need to remember the deposits He has put in us in the past and draw on those. When He tells you something, gives you something, imparts something, He doesn't take that deposit away and He wants you to continue to withdraw from that in the future. We need to hold on because breakthrough could (and probably is) right around the corner.

As always please keep me in your prayers right now... God is good, but the fight is tough. I can't wait to get to Australia and be over the "getting there" hurdle and onto the fight for souls for God's kingdom! :-) Then my hands will get really dirty!!! haha.